Tuesday, May 5, 2009

"Our Little Angel Grew Wings"

Sorry, it's been a little bit since I have posted. Needless to say the past two weeks have been very sad and emotional as our little angel, "Baby Kingcannon" was taken to heaven. We are not sure when it exactly happened, as I experienced a "missed miscarriage".

"A missed miscarriage occurs when the fetus dies, however the woman's body continues as if the fetus is still viable. The diagnosis of a missed miscarriage is usually considered after fetal heart tones are not heard or the size of the uterus has not grown. Then a ultrasound will be performed which will show a fetus that stopped growing several weeks prior to the ultrasound and there will be no fetal heart tones."

Here's to catch you up to speed: We went to our first ultrasound appointment with our OB on 4/21. We were ecstatic to see a heartbeat on our little one, however the Doctor was slightly concerned as the heart-rate was considerably lower than normal. We continued to keep faith and pray that our baby would be okay. We went in for a follow-up visit on 4/28 and the doctor confirmed there was indeed no heartbeat. In addition, the baby had not grown from the previous week, and was only measuring at 6 weeks, when I was indeed 8 weeks pregnant. Despite this horrifying news, David and I both insisted there was a "flutter" on the screen and requested another ultrasound. We went to an imaging center later that afternoon for another ultrasound. Once again, we saw very faint movement and the radiologist later confirmed that it was not a viable pregnancy. Still not giving up faith and hope, I prayed and prayed for God to allow our baby to grow. I asked Him for His will to be done and prayed for this baby to survive. After still no signs of miscarriage, we went back for another ultrasound on May 1st. A third doctor confirmed that the life of this baby has indeed ended. I was not able to see the sonogram screen during the ultrasound, but David did confirm that there was no movement on the screen. Since my body did not give the "signal" to miscarry the baby naturally, I was prescribed Cytotec which assists in the "abording" process. 12 hours later on Sunday morning, May 3rd I officially "lost" our baby.

It is hard to wonder why these things happen, but we have FAITH that God will give us another baby soon. I appreciate all the love, concern, and prayers from all of you thus far. David and I are doing good and keeping positive. We are surrounded with great family and friends and of course the comfort of our heavenly Father. We love each and every one of you and thank you for all you do!